Saturday, May 19, 2007

Myself and me

I am not myself alone, i am myself and me... my english teachers i am sure would not be too proud of the use of these words for the same person.
Myself amd me have known each other for 29 yrs now. We have seen a lot togeather. We have been there for each other in the ups and downs of life.... i value me a lot. Me has taught myself a lot. Myself is a busy entity..working hard, trying very hard to give its best to his family, his career, his work.... Me has always been there to let myself know that life is not about just living it but about giving it a big big big bear hug. Me has landed myself in a lot of trouble also.... when myself thought of the heart as "his" heart, me made him realize that his heart was not meant to be with him...it made myself give his heart away.... myself was happy....he thanked me. Later , myself had his heart broken....he was sad...he wept...he cried....me was there to tell him that everytime myself has his heart broken...his heart creates even more space through those cracks...more space....so that more love could dwell inside for someone else...sometime...at the right time... When myself is happy..me makes him happier... small occassions to be happy become big celebrations. When myself does something good for someone....me gives him a hug so warm that myself feels blessed...when myself does something bad ... me hugs him even then....a hug so cold that myself feels miserable for a long time..... me makes myself special...me makes myself dare..dare to take the bite..to love... to let myselfs heart skip a beat...me has made myself realize that when he hugs his parents after not having met them for months togeather..he should not let go...not let go till the warmth of their blessings makes his soul melt...melt into a pool of gratitude ..... gratitude for the values...gratitude for their unconditional love...gratitude for letting myself realize me.... to let me be... to let me grow....
i love me...i cant imagine not being estatic about small successes....small joys....i cant imagine not giving my heart away...i cant imagine not crying like a baby when i need to....i cant imagine not wanting to do good..... thank you me...myself loves u.....

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